I see you grinding hard. Doing the job of two. You are beautiful, bold and courageous.
You are not a statistic. You are not your mistake. Who says your dream has to be completely over? You can begin to live again. You can believe in love again. You will find true love. Sister I see you. You’ve got what it takes to raise not just a champion but champions. You are not ashamed to ask for help when needed. You are doing an excellent job. Sister dear, I see you. Jehovah Elroi sees you. He is your strength.
I’m currently reading Joyce Meyer’s book “Making Good Habits Breaking Bad Habits” and one part that stood out to me was where she stressed on the importance of laughter as part of a good happy habit.
“…but there are many things that we let make us sad when it would be better if we laughed more.”
Good books always make me reminisce about my past and how far God has brought me. He really has restored to me the years I lost in ways at the time I could never have imagined coming out from. I am genuinely happy and thankful for my family. My husband switching from serious to goofy is part of his unique personality and a delight to watch first hand. Similarly, my daughter teaches me to find joy in little things and that simple trait in my eyes is out of this world. Then I have my son who is just a bundle of energy radiating with joy and happiness rolled into one. He goes about his day without a care in the world, trusting that mommy and daddy will provide and catch him when he falls. I see why God says to us to be like little children.
On days I feel out of character by worrying about tomorrow that is really not promised, I learn through watching my family to be in the present and trust that God has started good work which he will complete. Yes, what more can a girl ask for?
The past is a forgotten memory. The present is full of endless possibilities. I am a new man TODAY.
GENESIS 1: 1-2 “In the beginning God CREATED the heavens and earth. 2 The earth was formless and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep; and the SPIRIT of God was MOVING over the face of the waters.”
I am holding on to too many things mentally and spritually and it is time I let go. I’d like to see the creation story as a lesson or example of how to REFRESH ALL aspects of my life. No more looking back. Since NOW is my BEGINNING, God can CREATE something beautiful out of me out of NOTHING. I am a clean slate. I am a foundation laid down preparing for bigger things to happen. I am not tied down to my past failures or insecurities. It does not matter how I feel. What matters is me making the first steps towards recovery and AWAY from the darkness.
Despite the misdirection (FORMLESS) and emptiness (VOID) of the past, despite the lack of vision (DARKNESS) that makes me stumble. the spirit of God still MOVED within me. I must tap into that Spirit because it is what will transform me into a new man.
My Son is changing as well. He is not the helpless boy I once held in my arms. He is just over a year old now and so full of life. He is walking confidently and doing his best to navigate around our small apartment. A few months earlier I was thrilled when he was finally able to sit up by himself and now he expresses himself in so many different ways. There is meaning in his squeals, shouts, and grunts. The look of recognition he gives me when he says “DADA” warms my heart in ways I can’t express.
Scripture says we are God’s children no matter how old we are and I can see a glimpse of the tenderness God shows us despite our faults. God is so quick to forgive because we are little children. He nurtures us, advices us and guides us into spiritual maturity so that we can stop doing childish things.
My son looks forward to each morning and I must do the same. Nothing is guaranteed and so I must value EVERY MOMENT God gives me. No more excuses, but more importantly no more dwelling on the past. I am a new man.
Genesis 1: 3-4 And God said, “Let there be LIGHT” : and there was light. 4 And God saw that the light was good: and God SEPARATED the light from the darkness.”
I must speak things into existence and part of my responsibility is to say that I DO NOT WANT DARKNESS IN MY LIFE. Make bold statements not simply as a mantra but a way to make it part of my spritual fabric. Let light be embedded into your skin like blood flowing through your veins. There is a clear distinction between LIGHT and darkness and the ONLY way to keep darkness out is to introduce the LIGHT. Therefore, focus on the things that bring out the light in you. Leave the things that feel good in the moment yet only leave your heart dark and empty. Summary
⦁ God has the ability to CREATE something out of nothing. The CREATION story is a story of TRANSORMATION and CHANGE.
⦁ It is no surprise that God created light first. My spiritual eyes must be OPEN/ AWAKENED in order for me to see my transformation.
CREATED LIGHT; separated light from darkness, Day and night
SEPARATED WATER FROM DRY LAND; Earth
On my way to work one morning I was caught in traffic, which seemed to have appeared out of thin air. One minute I’m cruising down my usual route and the next minute, without warning, I’m in the middle of an endless stream of vehicles. As every car slowly plodded along, a few decided to make a U-turn to find an alternate way around our sorry predicament. Their decision to turn back seemed very strange to me because a different way would actually take longer to get to their destination. As painful as it was to sit through that traffic I knew it was my only bet to get to work in time.
A thought clearly crossed my mind in that moment about our predicament as human beings. Are we willing sometimes to wait for the right moment before we make a decision or want something? Do we make impulsive decisions that only take us back to where we started thinking we are actually moving forward?
Considering how bad the traffic was that first few minutes we inched our way forward and shortly thereafter everything went back to normal. Whatever was causing the traffic jam wasn’t that serious at all!
When you find yourself at a crossroads don’t be quick to make a U-turn. There are benefits in the waiting and not every pause in your life is bad or negative. The “slow down” moment doesn’t mean you are not working hard enough or things aren’t going your way. It might mean just that…slow down.
A wayward person is someone who is difficult to control or predict because of their unusual or perverse behavior.
God called the children of the Israelites in Jeremiah 3 wayward as He pleaded for them to come back to Him. As I read through the first few chapters of Jeremiah, I couldn’t help but think of believers who were once on fire for Christ yet because of different circumstances, they purposefuly walked away. Similarly, I thought of my own personal walk with God. There are times I’ve faltered. There are times I’ve felt overwhelmed. Yet in the midst of it all I’ve felt God lead me back despite my uncertainty.
People have their reasons for abandoning God. Sometimes it’s actually because they feel God abandoned them first in their hour of need. However, just as God pleaded with the Children of the Israelites, He is calling and pleading with you to return home, repent of your sins and ask Him back into your heart.
“Behold I stand at the door and knock…” (Revelations 3:20). He is calling you to come back to him so he can “heal your wayward hearts.” ( Jeremiah 3:22). And He Himself will direct you to the right shepherd who will guide you with knowledge and understanding. Will you yield to that call, before it is too late?
God is always willing to listen. God is always willing to give you a chance. I can’t stress it enough. Read the word of God for yourself rather than rely on what others tell you.
Thanks for stopping by and as you read through this, it is my prayer that it speaks to the depth of your soul.